NOTHING MORE!!! (hate 8)

Am I that ugly?

With a deserted face that you can't even court me?

Hahaizzz...

I just don't understand my self anymore.

I've seen you happy with me, but it's all in a friendly way and NOTHING MORE.

It's unfair!

Life is unfair!

Love is unfair!

I loved you and I always will.

You, you don't love me.

I admired you.

You, you don't admire me. Well, you appreciated me once or twice but that's all.

There's NOTHING MORE.

You didn't see the person inside me that silently loving you.

You didn't recognize the glitters and sparkles in my eyes whenever I see you.

You didn't even noticed how excited I am whenever we set a time to meet.

It's painful.

I'm hurting.

My heart will bleed again if ever I'll see you flirting with other girls.

I just couldn't bear it.

I want to freak out.

I want to snatch you up from those pretty girls around you.

And take you to a place where I'm free to show you my love.

But I couldn't.

I don't have the right .

I'm just your friend.

Definitely your friend. And will always will.

MLCS

He is definitely nothing to me now.

Well, yesterday, he approached me. He wanted to ask my help. And I help him.

After that we never met. He didn't even say thank you to me.

I don't feel any feelings for him anymore.

He's a plain friend for me now. But, I don't know about him. I don't care.

I've been so bad lately.

Well, I guess I am.

I mean, I can't understand my self.

I felt like a trap little bird.

Yesterday, Angel (a friend of mine) spend our night in Cafe.

And to tell, I just wasted my money with nothing important.

Hahaizzz...

She felt that way too.

I went straight to home.

Since, from now on I'll have curfew.

10 pm I must be in our hours.

My Dad got angry when I got home drifting.

That was devastatingly bad situation.

I hate it.

I must not let him see me weak.

I must be strong in his eyes.

But, he saw me that way.

He lost his belief on me.

I hate it.

Not worth it.