BROKEN ROSE; DOUBTFUL HEART
I am currently battling my self now. My gush... I don't know what to decide and what to do! I have this bad feeling that if I will do this thing... I will never be the same again.
I've been so lonely lately. My head aches and my heart bleeds. Torn into pieces. Like lots of pieces that some of it is invisible to the eye. To be seen no more.
Scars are left into my wounded heart. Thinking of no lights in my path of life. No shadows of known being. Strange scary things are vivid enough. Left me bewildered with life.
Balancing my thoughts is not that easy as others may think. It's so difficult. Thinking that no one is going to save you from this disastrous reality left me so fragile and broken.
My life seems to be futile. No glow in my cheeks. No color in ways. Just deem black. Black, symbol of my inner self. So bewildered. Full of doubt.
Today, I have no one to turn to. I have no one to cry. My best friend is in other place. I need to ride a ship in order to get near her. She seems to be so many miles away. So away from me. I feel so alone. I am alone.
