WeeEEee... I finished reading my Lost Bride book! It really captured my attention. And honestly, I didn't sleep until I didn't finish reading it. Whew! I slept 2:00 in the next morning! Haha... but, it's worth it! I love the book! Hmmm... I wonder if fairies are really true... Well, I hope they are. Haha.. I secretly wish that they will come and get me! Haha.. and make me a princess in their land.. Wishful thinking!Honestly, I have this man---- always in my mind! By dream ever-beloved man! He has all the potential that I want him to have. I love him. I just dare hope that he existed. But, then I know God prepared something more worthy for me. Though not perfect just like me but, a person that just fits me! I dreamed of getting into it now! Haha...
Here! deep inside my heart I am always longing for a true love or if not true love... but a long time relationship. Well, it just happen that I can't keep long time relationship. I just don't know why! It's just that I don't want to fall out of love! I don't want love to rule over me! So that is why, to express my self I just keep reading romantic novels.. OOOhhh... I don't want to be hurt becoz of love. And I didn't try crying in pain becuase of any boyfriend that I had. Well, for me they just come and go. That's it and nothing more.
My friends wouldn't be amazed if I say that my boyfriend and I just break-up recently and no trace of pain in me. Well, they get used to it. I didn't, sometimes, tell them if that guy and I is on! Haha.. I just want them to know through our actions.
Relationship for me is not really that serious. It's just a mere human need of affection. Well, I've got plenty of it! But, in me I need boyfriend coz my friends have them. It's what I mean of having boyfriend. Honestly, one mistake of the person who courted me somehow take any feelings I have for him. And if I daresay, I love the person I would do my very best to get rid of him if I can't get rid of this love he caused me. And I'll hate him for letting me feel love. I don't like it!
But, there is this particular person in my life that I love him for he is. And not hating him for letting me feel this way. I just don't know why... ooh- when he will actually look at me dah,.. feels like heaven descended to earth!
OOhh... he is very different from all the person I actually get acquainted with. He seems like my other half. I have lots of crushes and puppy loves and most of them I hate, now! But, him?! Oh- how I wished he would court me and tell me that he loves me or even if he only says that he likes me! Bless be!
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